A year as Mama

I rocked her in the glider this morning after a hearty struggle to get her down for a nap. Her sweaty little head on my shoulder showed that she put up a good fight, alternating between coy smiles and tense shouts to try to evade this sleep. Sleep she, and really I, needs to make…

A Good Friday

This Good Friday speaks so deeply to my heart. He was pierced of our iniquities, The Blameless died for our sins and, in doing so, took the sting out of death for us all. Because of the cross, there were smiles behind our tears last night as we said goodbye to Grandpa. Because of the…

The room is full.

The room is full. His bed has been moved so people can fill in around him. One, two, five, eight, the walls stretch to accommodate the people and their love. Songs of worship fill the air between tears. 10,000 reasons to worship today and forevermore we are reminded. His strength is failing but we lift…

Contrasts

My grandparent’s house is bursting with emotion these days. Some good, some bad but all of them hit like a ton of bricks when you least expect it. My eyes well with tears when I go from room to room, straddling the thin line between the heartache of loss and the joys of life abundant….

Relentless Heartache, Relentless Hope

Weeks ago, Q and I excitedly spread the news to our friends, our family, and our village that we were expecting a sibling for Lucie. Although it was probably sooner than others might want to share the news, we wanted to be able to lean in on our community for better or worse, to be…

The Finest Hours!

I have seen my share of tense movies but this one had me on the edge of my seat, butt clenched, holding my breath. If you want a great aerobic workout and a chance to work out your “GO, GO, GO!” cheers before the Superbowl, this is the film for you.

Gentle to whom?

Let’s acknowledge that babies, moms, and families as a whole all have their nuances. If a mom reaches out, lets not be so quick to impose what works for us as the hard and fast law of raising kids.

Working it out.

September 1st, 2013 was a day of moving for me. The salon I worked at closed and I needed to move from my apartment to a house in the town I lived in. To be transparent, that much change in one day broke my noggin. I was overwhelmed and fearful. I felt lost. Even though…

Little Target Miracles

I was pushing my cart along in Target, trying to keep Lucie from licking everything she could reach and dutifully scanning my bread (the #lowcarblife was short lived yet again) for a killer Cartwheel discount when I heard the sound. Had I looked up a millisecond later my eyes would have missed the source of…

My chest hurts a lot the last few days. Last night I stayed awake in the dark just unable to turn my brain off from the constant noise. But if it isn’t my brain keeping me up it is my heart feeling like it’s going to pop.   A friend recently talked with me about…

Recharge

  This morning was a chance for me to recharge.   I am the type of gal that needs her tribe. I need my people because they give me the good stuff, the happy feelings, they fill my days with life. This morning I got to spend some time with the people that take the…

Catching Up!

November and December were non stop chaos. We traveled, we were sick, we had a grandpa fall ill and a hard drive catastrophe, we had birthdays and holidays to celebrate and on top of it all, a root canal that went sideways. It was a joyful and stressful season.   Sparing you the photos of…